POETRY

Pretending

I thought I was getting better

The thoughts only got worse

Does god have a sick sense of humour?

Cause I'm not finding this funny anymore

I just wanna get out of bed

And live like the people that don’t pretend

I can’t stand to be alone

Or out in public far from home

Bury me underneath my house

Bury me underneath my house

So I can see someone else live correctly

 

Pink + Blue = Forever

Pink clouds in a blue sky

Holding hands, just you and I

I’m sorry if I hurt you bad

Intentions mean nothing with that impact

Trust your heart in the ocean

Let the waves take over, follow motion

Honestly, I meant it

When I said that I need you , you’re my best friend

you’re my best friend

 

Let Me Out

I can’t

I don’t think I will make it

Another moment, I am shaking

So Let me out, let me out

Let me out, let me out

 

Waiting

I was kept waiting

The clock never moved for me

You said you weren’t ready

But I thought differently

Sing me to sleep, tell me a joke

Whatever you do, just please don’t go

I was kept waiting

The clock never moved for me

 

What Will Happen Next?

I hope I don’t disappear into nothing

In 100 years It’ll probably happen

I'm not afraid of death

I’m afraid of what will happen next

I hope I don’t disappear into nothing

 

Never Enough

Oh no, we’re back here again

Don’t know how this will end

I’ll wait until the medicine kicks in

or wait until my heart just caves in

Whatever comes first

Can’t leave the comfort

I’ll wait until the medicine kicks in

or wait until my heart just caves in

Whatever comes first

Can’t leave the comfort

It’s never enough it’s too much

It’s never enough it’s too much

It’s never enough it’s too much

It’s never enough it’s too much

 

Everything I Need

I have everything

I need in front of me

I have everything

I need in front of me

I have everything

I need in front of me

Except You

Except You

I’ll keep praying for the day

You come back to me

I’ll keep praying for the day

You come back to me

I’ll keep praying for the day

You return back to me

I miss you

I miss you

 

Jaded

Left out cold

Craving warmth

Burnt by love

Drowned in blood

Lost in thought

My memories faded

Only for a moment

I felt less jaded

 

Finished

You don’t look at me the same way

Or talk about me to anyone

This anxiety is killing me

I hope it lets me out one more time

So I can see you with him

The closure, our distance,

The hopelessness within it

One more drink, we’re finished

We’re finished